tROUBLemaKER!!!

lately emosi xbrp nop stabil..kdg2 rse cdey,kdg2 rase marah n rase mcm xde mood nk ckp ngan sume owg....xthulah bakpe tapi rsenye sbb rizat spm nak kuar dah plus sakit ati dgn someone in my family..tapi xboh r ade rase gini terytama sekali dgn adek beradek....tapi mcm xleh r...makin lame makin sakit ati.....sblm nie mcm2 plan...lps abis spm nak improve my englishlah,nak keje, tp sumenye xjd....rse cdey sgt bile kene balek kg tmn adeq aq.....xkisah sgt pown duk kt besut....xbeban ckit pown nk tmn adeq ngan ayoh aq kat ctu....tapi yg buat aq rase geram +maroh+bengang bile owg xhargai langsung nde yg aq buat...bknnyew nop suh dyeowg puji melambung tapi jgn r nop komen plop nde yg aq buat....i`ve tried my best doing all dat cleaning,cooking n other things related to that stuff....well at least i had improved my cookoing skill without going to any of cooking class.....kekekeke.......tapi gitu r....skunk nie mok suh aq duk kmmn tmn k.long plop....mmg aq nie muke kene tmn owg ea....i deserve to make my own decision....semalam mcm memberontak ckit...ayoh kol ckp pown mcm nop xboh jew....sakit ati r......rase bersaloh pown ade.....tapi biar r....kdg2 rase mcm lmbt  r plop nop bleh smbg blajo mane2...bowink doh duk kat umah xbt nde2 pown...satu lg nde yg bt aq bengang ngat ngan adeq aq kdg2 law dye suh ajo something aq bleh jew nk ajo.....tapi xke r bile aq ajo jew mmg dye akan tanye byk nde...well...xkisah r...maybe dye mmg xphm nde yg cikgu dye ajo tapi aq paling pantang law aq ajo n dye mcm xcaye....kononnye mcm aq xthu nape r....mcm nak uji aq pown ade...mmg r pale aq nie bkn mcm buku teks....sometimes ade gok nde yg aq xingat bile dye tanye....xth r gane...pada aq adeq aq nie mcm ske sgt nak bergantung ngan owg len...in short still xleh nak berdikari....tapi honestly jelez r ngan dye coz mok mcm ikut jew nde yg dye nak maybe tkut dye bt perangai kot....xbeza pown dye ngan aq...aq thn lps xduk hostel gop...balek ngan bas gok....bakpe dye balek ngn van pown nop sungut mcm balek jln kaki...padahal mase xboh duk hostel mcm2 janji ngan ayoh...`.`xpe k.we sanggup balek ngan van pown asal xduk hhostel``...eleh....susoh r nk bg dye paham...dye nop suh owg jew paham n ikut cakap dye..at least fikir r cket mok ngan ayoh 2 busy mcm ne..pape jewlah.....panas rase ati....rizat dahlah nak kuar doh...arrrggghhh!!!!tkutnyew.....whateverlah....yg pnting law aq xske pown duk ngan adeq aq kt kg tu i just do it for my parents....n arp2 adeq aq 2 cpt2lah matang.....